Yesterday I went to a high school in my neighborhood to get my edusave scholarship with my sister (it's her second time). The school is Kranji Secondary School, and the place was not so crowded when we first arrived. I was directed to sit beside to boys in the first line, who were speaking in Mandarin. My sis was in the second line somewhere behind me. She was squashed in between to yucky boys. Ew.
Anyway, after, one of the head prefects or whatever asked the parents to stop jamming up the space in the hall, and asked them to move up to the balcony. The Mandarin version was so funny! The girl's words were so forced and loud. Some people actually covered their ears. I winced.
Anyway, after listening to a boring speech by boring people, we stood and turned to the left to get our scholarships from the counters. I got 300 bucks! My sis got 500. Anyway, after we had to wait while my dad had his dinner. My drink was already 3/4s empty by the time his meal arrived.
Tomorrow I will be going to GEMS, children's church but only for twelves, alone. ALONE.
But!
I've decided that I will not be embarrased and all, I will be bold and confident. I will shed that embarrased, low self-esteemed me. I will change, have changed. But the most important thing is that I don't want to be the old me anymore, I wanna be the new me. The new me.
